*sigh* so my big plan has been put on an indefinite hold... freakin roommate... she said that we'll go today, but what does she do? she runs off to go home for the weekend before i even wake up!!! GRR... hopefully it won't take that long for my idea to be completed cuz i kinda want it soon... blah! damn lack of car or friends with cars... or lack of friends actually... haha! =P suckas...

*takes of her mask revealing a face full of tears, sadness, and pain* inside, i'm breaking because of what's going on between us... i don't even kno what is happening and why... every night, after people try to cheer me up, i lay my head down to rest and all the thoughts rush in at once... i look at the pictures on my wall. i think of the first time we met and jus how cute he looked. i think back to the first kiss. back even to the first hug. i think of all our firsts. i remember the night he told me his new year's resolution... what happened... i don't kno... but i do miss him and i love him with all my heart... please god, i hope he still feels the same... i kno in my heart that he does, but i jus need to see/hear it cuz it's been so long...