i hate my past. i hate having been with joey. i hate having met miguel and alex. i wish i never had findapix up cuz it gave me more problems in a way. i also hold a strong dislike for rolando. overall, i wish that things with chris were like how they are now back when i first met him those few years ago. i don't even think i would've been with joey, or it would've been right after him, before the real problems started. i wish i could go back in time, and stop myself from allowing miguel to spit his game. that's where it all began. a slow decline into the life i led my junior year in high school. majority of senior year was okay because i was with chris, but after that... things went all downhill again. i messed with people's hearts. i did some things i wish i could take back. i feel bad for everyone i hurt in my process of self-discovery. i'm sorry. behind that external disguise, my heart knew what it wanted, but refused to make it completely obvious. all i truly longed for was chris back, but i took the wrong steps and the long way to get it. i fooled myself into believing that i could live without him, that i could find someone that could compare and could take his place. but no one exists that can compare to him or ever take his place. i wish i knew that from the beginning. oh well, what can i do... i guess everything made me stronger. i kno what i would be missing if i ever lose chris, so i'm gonna give my all in order to never let that happen again. i love him too much to let go. i never want to lose him again. forever may be a lot, but i want that. i'm sorry chris for my past, but i'm giving u my future. i'm truly devoted to chris, and couldn't see myself with anyone else. i love him. who love chris? adrienne loves chris. i do. i do. i doOoo... =P

How did we end up here?
Didn't we say goodbye?
I guess it took breaking up
To make us realize
How did we end up here?
I thought we couldn't work it out?
It seems the circle of love
Brought us back around
B4-4 - "How Did We End Up Here?"