i slept pretty much the whole day... sleep is my escape from the world and its problems... i don't kno what else to do anymore... i'm knocking on ur heart, please let me back in cuz i've lost the key...

so yea, apparently, people in my dorm notice my negative disposition. someone said that i give everyone weird looks like i hate everyone. heh... makes me feel all bad now... i guess it is my fault that i have no friends here.. *shrugz* i guess maybe i should put up my front and smile more and make it seem like everything's good so that maybe i'll have friends... so that maybe the lonliness that i feel won't be so bad... crap... i do feel bad, cuz it's like they've tried but i never gave them a fighting chance... freakin aye... i'm so close minded... the same thing happened in hs. i chose to not kno people, and that's what happened... until time passed, and i let people in... *sigh* but u kno what? honestly, if all else fails... i still have my friends at home... few they may be... and i still have the love of my life... =\

today was an okay day... slept till 3... got out of bed at 4... took a shower... sat around on my ass until about 7... went to the kaba meeting... long ass meeting too... then to the afterevent. yea, some people were suprised to see me out of the dorm. asses... haha... so yea, the after event was hooters. jus great... haha... the food was pretty good... the sites were umm... less than interesting. haha... ok, that's all... i need sleep...

"You're so special to me.
The thought of you leaving is killing me.
Please, tell me what do I do now?
'Cuz livin' without your love, I don't know how."
tatyana ali - through life alone