i recommend u get this song =]

Come What May
Ewan MacGregor/Nicole Kidman
Moulin Rouge Soundtrack


Christian:
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Chorus:
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Satine:
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace

Christian:
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

Satine:
It all revolves around you

Satine & Christian:
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you (I love you) until the end of time

Chorus

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Chorus

chris is leaving for long beach this saturday... *sigh* i'm gonna miss him... tummy squeezes and all... but at least it's only like 2 weeks and not months... man, imagine... months... wow... but i think we could do that too... but i've fallen so deep for him... i don't think i should go into it... so moving on...

i hate being bored... iono... it really has this effect on me... like i get all pissy and moody... (sorry chris for takin it out on you) i don't know why... maybe i jus hate being home... sometimes it just gets so boring that i could jus walk outside of the house and go for a walk down the street and be entertained by the simplicity of being out of the house... but most of the time, i'd rather spend my free time with yep, u guessed it... chris... man, i'm gettin so attached and it's jus setting me up to be let down... i better relax a lil before he gets suffocated by me... cuz that's the last thing i want... to lose him... =[ i said i would stop, huh?... dangit... alrite... so yea, boredom kills me...

i should be studying for finals right now, but i decided a few hours ago to not care for today... but i have hella ish to do tomorrow, so i better get my shit taken care of tomorrow night... i have to do resumes for college applications, do math homework, and study for my last final CALCULUS... death to calculus...

well, i guess that's all for tonight... i can't think of anything else to write about... wish me luck on my finals all u 2 people who read this... 2, ha... if i'm so lucky

i can't wait to spend time with chris again... *sigh*... i've got it bad... =P dear God, please don't let me be hurt. especially not now because i'm so happy with what i have and who i love... =] thank you. luv my chris...

i hate coming home... =\

well, today sucked major ass... seriously... i slept until about 11:00... woke up to the phone ringing, hoping that my mom would pick it up, but to my suprise, she wasn't home... so i jus ignored all phone calls that were for her, assuming that they'd call her cell phone... then she comes home with food... thank bajeezus... then yea, she goes about her business around the house... i decide to take a shower at about 1:30 or so... then she leaves to go out wit my aunts for the birthday outing thing for one of them... so i was home alone... great... and still am currently... i should've found some way to go out, but no... i didn't... dumb ass... and everyone's not at home, jus my luck... no one to talk to either... the whole online thing can kiss my ass too... it's so boring now... nothing to do anymore... photoshop and flash have been put on hold due to laziness... there's seriously nothing to do in this damn house... so i slack off for a few hours, doing absolutely nothing except the occasional wallowing in my own depressing situation... i'm so freakin hungry right now too jus to top it off... too bad there's nothing, and i mean nothing, to eat here... except maybe the leftovers from the morning/early afternoon... but i'll save that until i get to the extreme point of desperity... so here i sit now... actually starting to review for my damn final tomorrow, when i know that i'd rather be doing nothing again... because what's the use of studying for a test that you know you're gonna fail no matter what because u slept during every class the whole semester, wasn't paying attention, haven't read a page in the textbook, haven't read a chapter in the novel assigned, or never took a page of notes in the class? yea, i'm gonna fail... yay me... i couldn't care less, seriously... but i guess i should at least put some effort cuz i have nothing better to waste my time on... there's only so many rounds of solitaire and javanoid that one can take... please god, send me some food... --pause-- heh... so my mom won't let me order pizza for myself... fine fawker, i'll starve then... i don't freakin care!!! i dislike the world... *sings to herself* i guess it's time to go amuse my starving self with some u.s. government... yay...

the day got a lot better once chris picked me up at about 7... =] went to the movies (behind enemy lines)... it was an alrite movie... but i will never be able to take that lead guy as a serious actor... then we went to play pool... after i stopped bitching about not wanting to play, i actually got into it and had a fun time... sorry cutie for bein a pain. =] but yup, today was good. i jus hope my mom isn't being killed on the inside from a previous talk we had and my coming home late because i know she's not gonna say anything anymore... *sigh* dilemmas... but it's pretty good now for the most part.

btw... i love u chris =]

as the sun is setting here, i reflect on how nice a day it was today... i woke up late this morning and called into my volunteer job to tell them that i couldn't make it... i lounged around for a while until about 2 with hopes of going out later... well, my mom decided to go to the mall... but she left while i was taking a shower... i didn't go with her because i was plannin on goin out wit chris after i got ready... so after i'm all ready to go... i call chris up... and turns out he's gonna go break then go to the movies... not to be mean, but watchin them break isn't all that fun for more than an hour... if it was a competition or sumthin, it would be fun... but it's jus a practice... so i told him to jus pick me up after... then i started thinking... "it'll be like 2 hours until he's done... great... maybe i don't wanna go out anymore..." well, i didn't really wanna go out later mostly because i want to go out now... so i called him up told him that i didn't wanna go out anymore later... and yea, he called me back probably 10 minutes later and tells me that he's goin to the movies anyway with his friends... and he asked if i didn't wanna go still... so i jus thought... "i guess i might as well since i got ready for no reason really... and yea, i'll get to see chris..." so i said yes. here i sit at about 4:15, bored out of my mind... depressed to the max... and hating life... *sigh* hopefully, i'll have fun tonight to compensate to shitty ass day i've been having so far...

nothing really to post... but guess what today is?!?! it's me and chris' 6 monthsss!!! yay!

my mom and i aren't talking... joy... i don't even want to get into it...

well, school is gettin better... formal was on saturday... i had hella fun wit chris, but i like how my mom ruined my day up to then... whatever... hate her...

grounded... the end... blah blah blah