why do u treat me the way you do? am i just paranoid and just imagining it all? do u kno how much i still love you? jus how much i wish i could wake up one day and realize it was all just an awful nightmare? unfortunately, it seems as if you don't want me anymore... i don't even think i mean anything to you anymore. well, at least that's how it seems... i wish i could just tell this all to you, but i'm scared of your reaction... i don't wanna get put down again... i hope you read this cuz at least u'd kno how i feel, but then again... is that a good thing? i jus wanna kno if i'm jus wasting my time and emotions because i don't wanna hurt anymore... i don't wanna think back to how it was when u and i were together and miss everything. i don't wanna wish that i could be in ur arms again if it'll never happen like i want it to. i don't wanna cry over you anymore and how much i just wish that you would take me back because God only knows how much i miss you and how much i wanna be with you. it's been a little over 3 months that i've been without ur love... i've known you for about a year now because (i doubt u remember) it was this time a year ago that we first started talking... then going out... remember all those late night conversations on the phone talking about pretty much anything we could think of? i wish i could go back in time and live those moments again... next month would've been our one year anniversary... i used to look forward to it, but now i can only dread it because i know that i'll just think of you and i and cry... as i've been doing... without u, i jus feel so empty... maybe i'm delusional to even think that we should/would get back together... but all i know is that i just want you back...