I have nothing to write about anymore... I'll leave it at that for now... I'll be back sooner or later...

oh my fcukin goodness!!! i'm off of academic probation!!!!!!! yessssss! adrienne got all Bs! HELL FREAKIN YEA!!!!! =D

FriendOfMine (2:27:54 AM): dont settle for less than what u expect out of a guy

pretending to have hella bank and walking around the mall was fun. i jus got my hair all done good and i must say, i was lookin good. rockin the coach purse, the heels, all black clothes cuz of my dress code for work [sweater, skirt, pants], and my star honda belt. ;] i loved it. i liked walkin into coach and other stores thinkin that i could afford that stuff. u swerrrrr. hahaha... what can i say? i like the high life sometimes...

my roommate says i've got game... heh... that i'm a tomboy but still pretty... and that's how i get guys... HA.

salutations my blog. i have nothing to share really... been workin my butt off... yet, somehow, i don't have any money left at the end of the week for myself... or presents for that matter... so if u kno that i'm plannin on gettin u a present... don't expect it till after christmas... heh

And now for some words of wisdom:
· A Zen koan: Zen master said to his pupil, "I own you, bitch. Know that." And the pupil was owned. And he knew it.
· The Tao of Tat: Do not seek your own advantage. That might prevent me from gaining the upper hand.
· Confucius say: One day people from every race and culture will eat my food and bust open my cookie and read my Goddamn philosophy, boyyyyyyyy! East side! Huh!
· Jedi proverb: Fun to put the predicate ahead of the subject, it is.
· Famous Cat Aphorism: Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow. Meowwwwwww.
· Crazy people wisdom: Holy bong bong doogle my mixy! Worship my Bangkok, peanut face! Scooby snack vroom!
· Your daily affirmation: I am the shiznit. I am off the hizzle. And doggone it, people dig me!
-T.

so here's my post from my sidekick... I'm feelin kinda down right now... don't kno why specifically... could it be because I jus got my ass beaten in gunbound? or cuz I have to sleep on the couch tonight? or maybe because I'm sick and sore? or could it be because I can't go home for christmas? or possibly because I have to fork over $378 to the court cuz of my ticket and that I have to attend traffic school? might be because I have finals this week and I feel the pressure to succeed or at least pass? but could it be because I've lost someone that's been close to for over 2 years and there's nothing I can do about it? *sigh* you decide cuz I'm so lost...

this is from elline's xanga... i liked it a lot... cuz i was/am like that to someone...

What is a Meantime Girl?
What is a Meantime Girl?
"She’s the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh. She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don’t look at her as a "real" woman, either. She’s not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She’s too laid- back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable – she doesn’t make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she’s cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you’re lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine.

You don’t have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don’t have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She’s not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she’ll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don’t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn’t the beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won’t bother her that you’ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you’ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She’s just so cool … why can’t all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don’t because to you, the situation between the two of you isn’t important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it’s really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don’t think she’s good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it’s mostly her fault, because she doesn’t have to give in to your needs – she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn’t pull it off.

Maybe she’s too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

She doesn’t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She’s safe. She doesn’t want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone’s head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front- row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you’ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah, I’m a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don’t know the reason, really, and at this point I don’t even care. I just want to let every guy know who’s ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won’t be around."

yes... we cry.

"The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials."
- Chinese Proverb

oh my goodnes... i. FREAKIN. have. FREAKIN. exactly. FREAKIN. enough to. FREAKIN. pay off my. FREAKIN. cingular. FREAKIN. bill!!!!!! YAY ME. hahaha... too bad it leaves me with nothing for the next bill. d'oh!