i'm goin home! i jus have to get thru these 2 midterms and 1 class... then off i be! let's hope the fires died down... well, see ya!

new temporary layout... yea... still needs to be customized to my liking...

all it would've taken was jus one phone call on the 11th... to think that things would be so different had that happened...

okay, i'm in very great need of money. like REALLY. i kno that i may not do a lot for all of you except rant on and on about my life, but PLEASE. i'm begging for money through my blog. please send money through paypal to angelxflair@hotmail.com or email me. PLEASE. my coming cell phone bill is almost $300. i need help. it's all due to the drama that happened not too long ago... DAMN DRAMA. please help. i'm begging. anything...

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JOE!!! =D

just a lil note... don't leave me in target when i have money and am in a lil gloomy mood... ok, so i wasn't really gloomy, but yea... i was a lil disappointed that target & bed,bath&beyond didn't have fans... so i ended up buyin two muscle machines... oh, i almost bought the $20 modifiers diorama... but i resisted... hehe...

FRIENDSHIP GAMES!!! i wanna see a lot you there! hehe...

eBay item 3355265611 (Ends Oct-20-03 21:39:02 PDT) - NAS Big Boi TALIB KWELI Audiotistic POSTER

hahahaha... it's not jus funny cuz it's on sale on ebay... but also cuz people are actually bidding on it! wow!

i am still hella tired even tho i woke up at 2:30pm today... DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG... my whole body is sore... i'm having a lot of mixed emotions bout last night... i feel bad for a lot of things, but i feel happy for a few others... man... i kno at least 3 people didn't have that great of a time... blah... so much for my wish... i did want everyone to at least have fun... but i also wanted everyone to be able to kick it together... how i messed things up... oh well... what can i do now but deal with the consequences, good or bad... audiotistic was an experience... heh. my first so.cal event. the venue was freakin huge tho! it's funny how much it smelled like weed outside. haha... i saw nas. *drOoLz* makes the whole night kinda worth it... even tho i missed a lot of the other performances... *snaps* i did see big boi tho... but dannnnnnng... i wanted to see a number of the other performances too. oh well, no biggie... well, i'm off to deposit some much needed money... please paypal me money as a donation. lol. i'm a poor college student desperately seeking employment... haha

so here is the long awaited post... get ready for it!

well, i moved down almost a month ago... haha... yea, it's been awhile. well, there's been a few things going on down here in the OC. =P i'll give u the basic overview of each thing... heh...

apartment life. I LOVE MY APARTMENT. hahaha... it is so freakin beautiful. i swear it's like a resort. it's a nice home away from my home in the bay. =] my roommates are awesome. makana shares the master bedroom with me, and she couldn't be any cooler. all 3 of my roommates are crazy beautiful. one is even a pageant winner for cryin outloud! haha... yup. they are pretty ones. i guess i have some improving to do so i can stand next to them... speaking of which, they're pretty tall... then again who isn't tall compared to me? =P yup, 3 Ms and an A. Makana, Michelle, Melanie, and Adrienne! hehe... there haven't been any problems recently. michelle and mel are away a lot. all good tho. i need decoration ideas... and a mattress... haha... anyway, i'm also hella happy that dom, gene, greg, and ashton are jus a short walk away. =] it's an awesome experience being independent... sorta...

independence. ouch! hahaha... money issues everywhere!!! but yea, i guess i'll handle it. i don't really have a choice, now do i? haha... i'm accepting donations tho! please help me!!! until i can get a job at least... paypal them to angelxflair@hotmail.com =] haha... well, yea, i dropped off hella applications today at south coast plaza. i'm kinda hoping for best buy and express for men. *crosses fingers* if i don't get a call back, i have backups. hehe... cuz i picked up like 10 other applications too. yea, i have to get my ish together and get off my lazy ass. mmmhmm... i swear i only had a dollar in my wallet today... until my mom told me to buy lotto for my bday... goodbye dollar... hopefully, it becomes a couple million here and there. =D

school. what can i say? it's school. i think i'm gonna do better this school year... well, i don't really have a choice either. haha... damn ap. mary's in one of my classes. hehe... i hope irvine's goin well for her. my younger cousin also started goin here too. i see her in kaba every so often. i'm takin 12 units right now... i gotta load up a lil more next quarter... yup yup... school still sux. at least there's a whole nor cal clique in fil-am history. haha... especially my lovers mara and marsa. =P

kababayan. i don't think i'm gonna be as active this year around. it was really fun last year, but now it seems so different. a lot of the really active people last year aren't so present anymore... so it's like all the cool friends i made in kaba last year are m.i.a. i guess it's also cuz i'm not the cool lil first year anymore... i'm not special anymore!!! hahahaha... oh well... it's all good cuz i still have the friends from kaba last year, and i'll still be a paid member jus to support them and get a shirt... i'll go to friendship games too... =] see u there guys!!! [sfsu & sjsu]

having my car. OH JOY!!! i love having my car down here. ok, so parking is a real b*tch... but i like it a lot. whenever i get bored, i can jus leave and do something instead of sitting on my lazy ass... also, if i get hungry or sick... or whatever... i can actually remedy it! yea, paying for gas is something less than desireble... but oh well... at least i can go home if needed for an emergency or something... it sure does make life easier. =] oh yea, did i mention that i named my baby boy car? yes, his name is J. yay! take that, igor! =P

chris. it's hard to accept that a large part of my life is now over... a lil more than 2 years over. hopefully, we both find our happiness... i'm sure some people might be wondering what happened between us... but we never really showed our problems... which, in a way, led to our downfall... i jus hope for his happiness...

friends back at home. oh how i miss you all!!! i'll be there before you kno it! i will not lose touch or flake on you guys anymore... i promise! hehe... i'm so happy that a lot of you have stuck around through all my hard times... thank you all so very much... especially to the newer friends from irvine last year. =]

goin home last weekend. there was quite a bit of drama goin on... it had its good moments and some not-so-great ones... it was a very short excursion, but it was pretty cool. the drive up there with mara and kenny was hella coo. =D we timed it hella perfectly! hehe... i also got to kick it wit my mom on that sunday. it was kinda hard fitting in a lot of friends into one day, saturday, which was also the same day i drove up there... so it was really a half day. i did go to import revolution tho to support kennole's girl cecilia who was modeling there for asianlaah. i also saw one of the hollow men cars. haha... yup... that weekend was jus the beginning of...

this week's drama. OH MAN... this week jus sucked... from the 11th to the 18th... seriously... so many problems with only two people... friendships are tested and hurt. relationships ended... bLah! stupid drama... what can ya do i guess? squash the drama folks. i understand why it all happened tho... indeed i do... =

audiotistic & my bday. well, i received a number of phone calls from family and friends. it was nice being remembered and feeling special. =] the very early morning of my bday i kicked it wit mara at her apt and watched the lion king. hehe... then at about 3am, i started my 45 minute drive to LA to pick up my friend, joe. joe's purpose was to keep me company for the drive back to LA later in the afternoon... ok, so logically thinking, this was kinda a waste of gas and time... but whatever! whoever said i think logically at 3am, or anytime for that matter... i had a guest at my apt for the night and felt special too. so =P so yup, after bein lost in the same area of downtown LA for like 30 minutes, we finally find our way out of there, no thanx to some taxi driver. lol. we ended up gettin back to my apt at around 5-6. it was pretty crazy... at least we beat the sunrise. haha... so we slept until bout 11:30 when jeff called to tell us that we had to be in LA by 1:30... oh man... so we got ready and headed out hella quickstyle... now tell me why we rushed again? people need to learn how to communicate with one another! i didn't even get to stop by an atm or to get food! joe and i were starving! we eventually got all the plans together and rolled out to audio. it was pretty coo cuz jeff got me and some of the others in as VIPs. wOo! i was hoping to be able to get backstage and meet nas... but NOoOo... asses. lol. overall, it was an okay time. it had its share of ups and downs... i jus hope people had fun... that was my bday wish. =] i do have a list of wants tho... i should have posted it up... haha... well, that's all for now cuz i'm gonna hella clock out now... hellllllaaaa tired, yo. i jus wanted to finish this entry up... so don't even think that i wrote this all now... haha

happy 19th birthday to me!!! wOo!

whatever happened to the chris that would wipe away my tears instead of causing them to fall... *shrugz* no one will ever kno...

yes, a real post is comin and it's gonna be a long one...

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER KHEMARA TRY!!!
=D

i promise an update soon.