gawd dammit all to heck... giants lost... time to grieve...

u kno!

Friendship Games today! wOo! i have to wake up in about 3 hours... joy!

The Poetic Dreamer--n. poet--One having the power of lyrical expression. dreamer--n. somebody who dreams or is dreaming.

You walk the line between fact and fantasy, taking your time and listening carefully. You are sensitive, compassionate, and imaginative. Others rely on you to articulate words of hope and comfort during troubled times. Without you, there would be no way to describe beauty. The Poetic Dreamers inspire idealism. Write down your thoughts and dreams in a journal. If you are musically inclined, turn your words into a song.

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so here's the deal guys... for all of you with my cell phone number... please try to restrict urselves to calling between 9pm and 6:59am. text messages are okay, but this cat doesn't need anymore peak minute usage goin on... let's jus say i'm gonna be paying around $500 or so for my current bill... ya ya ya... leave me alone... =P i'm not answering my phone during the day, i'd jus like to add that too... oh yea, u could always call long distance and call my dorm room. ;]

one crazy ass night had ended... =P
thanx to all that made my 18th bday kick major ass:
CHRIS
CRYSTAL
peter
derek
tony
jeff
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! =]

...

so yea, i REALLY doubt i passed that test. i'll be at the retakes. that's for sure. yea, i suck. =P

sf pride! the giants are in the world series! yea yea, i'm a lil late on posting that, but shush. wOo!

crap crap crap! i hate java! i hate programming! i hate it!!! WAAAAHHH!!!! i have an exam technically today, and i know absolutely nothing... i'm screwed, yes. thank god there's retakes... cuz if not, i'd get an automatic c- in the class and therefore wouldn't pass the course and move on... bs i tell u! i'm gonna end up changing majors, i bet u...

i jus read through the lyrics to "adrienne" by the calling... and yea, i don't like those lyrics... kinda touches too close to home, but i kinda hope i'm just imagining that...

welll, i'm jus kinda stalling right now cuz i don't really think cramming is gonna help at the moment... but we'll see... wish me luck... the exam is at 10 i believe... hehe...

i leave tomorrow! hahahaha... hey bay, u readay for a-jay? =P

this weekend... wow...
Friday Night:
kuya jett told me to go to his work and then to his apartment cuz he was too lazy to come back for me later for dinner. so when i was at his apartment, i watched spider man on dvd. the movie was pretty coo. the "romantic" scenes were kinda cheesy tho... oh well, later i went out to dinner with my kuya jett and ate kristine. it was because i couldn't go wit them to la, and u'll find out why in just a minute. we ate at a hella good italian restaurant. i had my linguine wit pesto, chicken, and pine nuts... YUM! hahaha... after that, they came by the dorm jus for a lil bit. i borrowed the star wars trilogy and episode I from kuya jett just in case i got bored or something. well, i jus stayed in my dorm room all alone again cuz sanaz left for the weekend as usual on thursday night. hella later that night, i forgot what time tho, aramis stopped by for a lil bit. i called up chris at around 2 to say gnite and all that stuff and went to bed. the anticipation for the morning kept me awake for a lil while...

Saturday:
*street fighter theme ring tone* "AHH! It's CHRIS!!!" with that, i woke up and put on a sweatshirt. i brushed my teeth and waited for another call. He was here. So we walked trying to find each other... then "Okay, i see you." *click* i didn't see him... but as i continued down the path... i saw that crazy boi wit his chair backpack and blue duffle bag. YAY! so, i ran to him and we hugged. =D it's been so long since i had that feeling. it was worth the wait. so we went back to my room and he dropped his stuff down. we went back into bed trying to sleep, but that didn't work, so we were up and did random things on the computer... then the drama... argh... but it's coo now. =] so after a while in my room, we get hungry and decide to go walk around. we went to the shopping center across the street from campus. we decided to eat at a japanese restaurant. he hella liked it. hehe... so yea, we jus walked around there a lil bit and then back to campus. we played some air hockey, pool, video games, etc. at the game room. then we went back to the dorms. we kicked it there for a while until we decided to go to the lil pizza dinner thing my dorms were having. it was alrite even tho it was a middle school field trip walking to the pizza place. hehe... we got free appetizers and had to pay for anythin else. so we had some bomb-ish salad and sodas. it was chris, me, and my "suite-mate" evelyn in our lil group. we went to albertsons after to get some candy, and evelyn got milk. then we rented some videos from blockbuster: scorpion king and murder by numbers. the three of us walked back to the dorms while talking on our cell phones... haha... but yea, chris and i watched the scorpion king [pretty coo movie. the rock. yum. hahaha... but yea, it was a good movie.] that night and then went to bed. the first night to actually sleep in his arms. =D the best feeling in the world.

Sunday:
we woke up at 12. we kinda jus did random things. we ate at a sandwich place in the same shopping center. i got some thai tea too. we went back to the dorms and played HELLA games... haha... that's all we did. but it was so great. we both were hella high off of sugar cuz all we kept eating was pixie stix. haha... so we were playin basketball jus so we can run around. lol. my name was on every other line in the equipment rent-out book. from air hockey to pool to basketball to fooseball. fun times. that night we chilled in the room jus makin stars, listenin to music, goin on the internet, etc. we watched people walk by in the hall. hehe... =X they jus look at us differently... oh well, whatever... i'm not gonna start. we decided to watch murder by numbers at about 12. it was an okay movie. sandra bullocks's role was a lil weird, but yea. after that, we went to bed. =]

Monday:
i woke up at 9:30 cuz i had to get to class. i asked chris to return the videos cuz they were due at noon. so while i was at class, he did that and ate a lil bit. when i got back at 12, we chilled in the dorms again. played more games. hahaha... pool. yesss... i'm gonna rock that game, chris. =P anyway, after that we walked around campus for a while looking at the different ish at the student center and what not. we ate at the sushi place on campus and then we went off to my next class. just to my luck, my TA was joinin in on the strike on campus so she cancelled the discussion. good ish. i called up chris and then we walked around again. we ate again at the student center. i had subway and he had chinese food. the day was coming to an end... =\ we jus talked and watched the cars drive by while we ate. we were there for quite a while. then we went back to my room so we could jus kick it until he had to leave. only about an hour left with him. we called for a taxi so that it would be there by 6:45 cuz his flight was at 8. so that's jus we did. we kicked it in my room jus makin sure the time was spent well. =] then we started gettin stuff together and walking to the bridge where the taxi was supposed to meet him. after what seemed like hella long, the taxi finally found us. wit a hug, a kiss, and an "i love you," he got into the taxi and off he went. man, not even 5 minutes after he left, i felt so lonely.... =[ my room was so empty. my roommate didn't come back that night... and i slept alone. =\

well, chris, i love you. thanks so much for making my weekend so great! i hope i made ur bday a special one. =] i'll see you soon. hehe... in like less than 4 days. =P

today is national coming out day; so all u bi/les/gay people out there... come out of ur closets! and dance around in a rainbow flag in pride! lol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!!!
LOVE U!!! =P

[look at the time... i'm a dork... =P]

and today's reflection will be on SEX (muahahahaha... that got ur attention):
so yea, i was just thinkin bout how one of my friends always has sex while on e. see, i don't frown upon it or look down on him cuz of this cuz according to his previous gf, he's alllllll good... =P but yea, there might be those out there that believe "once u've done it on e, u'll never go back." and man... if sex with someone that u really care bout isn't good enough, then u jus don't know what sex means... sHoOot... and if u can't "perform" without bein high, oh man... u've got major problems... in a way, it's making sex just "fcuking"... and ARGH, that's just one of the things that gets to me... if u kno my past, then u'll kno why... but dayam, to sum it all up, here are a few equations:

pleasure = fcuking
pleasure × 10 = sex on e
(pleasure × 1,000,000) + love = makin good lovin >8P

in reaction to what's been goin on in maryanne's blog:
i too believe that my blog is in a way my escape. it's somewhere i can pretty much speak my mind freely. adrienne, what's ur anit-violence? i blog. i don't run out and attack innocent people. i don't break ish (unless it's extreme anger). i don't talk ish to people's faces. it's not my thing. i write, and i express it. people may not like what is said, but that's their problem. they can comment, e-mail, iM me all they want. that's another part of my bLogs. sometimes, they're really written to get a reaction of my readers. the feedback calms me down sometimes. overall, my bLog is a release of my emotions and thoughts.

comments on one of my friend's relationship wit his gf:
so i don't remember how they met, but i remember how their summer went. they were FTFs for the entire summer i believe. he wanted to ask her out, but she liked how their relationship was: jus as friends with a lil more. some people may see it as if she was jus in it for the ass, but who knows what she was really thinking? in those situations, i think that she could have said, "no" because she was scared of messin up the friendship or cuz she didn't know if an actual relationship with my friend would work out once it goes beyond the sex.. who knows for sure? but still, he didn't really lose hope. so now, they're going out. it seems as if he couldn't be happier, and the girl? she seems happy as well. time & patience in even the strangest of relationships are the best things to have.

well, nothing really has been goin on down in irvine. my mom is leavin for the PI today, but she's comin back on the 18th [i wonder why...] and then i'm goin home real soon my friends. haha... well, iono what to write anymore... so i'll bLog another time. =P

Adrienne's Birthday Wishlist:
// jeans & tops [XS in women's. S-M in junior's. 3 short in pants]
// shoes from mojos in the great mall. dark brown ones. =P [6.0]
// a large canvas graff of my name for my wall
// a blue hat/beanie/something for my head
// a new silver ring [size 5.5]
// jdm-style headlights [2000 civic ex]
// a computer printer
// new cds/music/mp3s
// time to spend wit my boi/friends/family =]

so today's friday... another weekend alone in the dorms... yea, my roommate [sanaz] left last night and probably won't come back till tuesday... so what am i left to do? sit in my room hitting my head against the wall? yea, pretty much... who knows? i'll decide by later tonight... i mght jus call up my cousin again and spend the weekend being lazy and watching the second season of the simpsons... haha... what a sad thing... anyway, iono what i'm gonna be doin right now... i kinda can't wait to go home, even tho i'm glad to be away... it jus that i miss my friends, but i'm doing alright here... i guess i'm startin to open my mouth... i was forced to talk to people in my humanities discussion today... and they were coo people, so i'm glad. i don't hate that class all too much anymore. one class down, only like 5 more to go... haha... i'll get there... today i met someone named carlos. he lives in my dorm building on the third floor. his face reminds me of daniel from my 8th grade class and his personality kinda reminds me of conrad, that hella older guy that went out wit leslie bend-a-bell. =P but yea, we were jus choppin it up bout how it's been transitioning from hs up north to college in socal. he went to moreau. i almost went there. weird. there's a lot of norcal/bay peeps here... one night about 2 or 3 days ago, some drama popped up. remember john jay from the previous entry? well yea, that night he also said some things my boi and i didn't like all too much... and then the night after i think, he said some things that pete didn't like... heh... cuz i was postin up a flow pete wrote up on one of the white boards in my dorm... i think it's hella coo... i'm gonna write down later probably if i get bored enough... anyway, jj decided to diss it while i was on the phone wit pete and chris... that wasn't good... and yea, he said a lot of crap... so DEE ARE AYE EMM AYE... but it's coo cuz i mean, whatever happens happens cuz that dood will deserve it... iono why he had to say all that he did... but whatever mang, u jus don't talk that shit and expect people jus to sit back... u diss my friends, u diss me. u diss me, u'll get it back in due time. so the moral to that story is: watch what u say. well, i'm feelin kinda tired; so maybe i'll take a nap until someone wakes me or call up my cousin later... alrite, later anteaterz =P

Take the "Which Marvel Comics Hero are you" quiz!

u may be asking yourself "why is adrienne up so early?" well, my friends, adrienne has yet to memorize her schedule; so on her way to her "first class" of the day, she stops and wonders if her class is at 9 or 10. HmMm... well, she gets to the room and walks in... she sees well over 100 people that don't look even remotely familiar and a teacher talking about god only knows... "think adrienne... 9 or 10?" then i swear at myself and realize my class is at 10... *chuckle* yea, i'm dumb. =P

sOo, last night was interesting... i heard hella noise down the hall, and i was curious to see what it was all bout... turns out that all the girls in my hall were cutting up their Middle Earth [my dorm] shirts and making them all girlie... u kno, the tied up sides, cropped sleeves, and the slit in the neckline... pretty cute, i must say... so i decided to join in the festivities. so that was goin on, and hella randomly i hear "who here is adrienne?" and yea, i look to see who it was... it was some dood named john jay from downstairs and some girl... well, i soon learn that this girl is deeana, peter's ex [peter=chris's best friend]... well, she was pretty, i suppose... her voice was a bit high-pitched, but at least she was nice. so yea, i was jus talking to her... the first thing she asked me was, "Do you know chris?!?!" and of course, i jus look at her like she's a weirdo... and say, "yea, he's my boi." hahahaha... oh man... anyway, john jay decided to take over my computer and iM chris. joy. that john jay character is interesting. he seems like a dork [and that's not a bad thing in some cases] but he was nice, i suppose. [now u kno why people don't like the word "nice." it's too general. oh well... =P] anyway, by the time dee went on her way and left john jay to mingle, chris and peter called on three-way... they were askin bout john jay cuz of the weird iMs and ish... so yea, i was choppin it up wit them and john jay at the same time... i learn that john jay is one of drea's best friends. "...like OH MY GOD!" haha... yea, look to the right and u'll see drea's name. =P jj [john jay is jus so horribly long to type] said that gettin in a long distance relationship was "the biggest mistake ever." my ass. blahdee blah... jj couldn't sleep in his own room cuz his roommate was buckin wit his gf... interesting, huh? so yea, eventually, jj left, and i spent the night choppin it up wit chris and pete. they're cool guys. =] i didn't sleep till 4. oh well... haha

oh and today's lesson is: "if u can't rock it, don't perp it."