"All Out Of Love" - Jagged Edge

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong

- i'm lovin this song too. =P

what am i still doing up?!?! ahhhh!!!... so import revolution is today... great... i'm so poor... $17 for a car show just doesn't seem to catch a lot of my attention right now... maybe later on when i'm dying of boredom, it will call on me to go... who knows... still would have to find someone to go wit... argh that...

blah... i'm still not in the mood to b-Log... heh... so maybe later.

it's been a while...

blah...

life was so good
what can i say
everything seemed perfect
i was finally happy
my guy was there
my friends kick ass, the best
family's not gettin on my nerves
but now...
2 out of three jus doesn't work...
if i could close my eyes
and end this nightmare
i would sleep forever...

take me away from this
jus grab my hand
lift me up and carry me
above the clouds
to a place somewhere far away
where no one can break me
a spot where it can jus be u and me
there's nothing in the world
that i'd rather have more
than your love.

sOo, it's been a while since i last posted... that's because i was in san jo wit my lil cousin... hehe... i was jus gonna run down everything day by day just like chantal did... she stole my idea! hahaha... anywayz... the past week was hella fun... got to kick it wit more than jus crys... =P so here i go...

saturday, 17th:
...to be contined one day...

hmm... yesterday, i woke up at around 9:45. got ready and waited. chris was on his way back from long beach. finally, he called at around 11:30. i went off to the airport to go pick him up. i found him pretty easily. then we went back to my house so he could take a shower before we went to go eat. he bought me a sorta r/c supra look-a-like... hehe... i can't explain... but yea, gotta love presents! =P after he finished gettin ready, we went to serramonte to go eat, and chris wanted to get the simpsons second season dvd set. walked around for a bit looking for it, but didn't see it. we ate panda express. yea baby... haha... then we walked around again trying to find it. and guess what! we found it at sam goody. so he bought that adnd i bought him the linkin park reanimation cd. we signed up for that replay frequent buyer thing there. we're sharing the same card. i wonder who'll use the discounts. haha... after that i had to drop him off at home cuz i had to get some stuff for my mom's bday. so i headed off to the shopping center next to ghetto tanforan. i bought a cake at red ribbon. mango! so good. while they wrote the happy birthday mom on the cake, i went to albertsons to get a card and flowers. i bought the perfect card once again. i waited for forever and a day in that damn line to pay tho... oh wellz, i made it to my mom's work at around 3:20. she was suprised. hehe... she thought i forgot about her or something... good stuff...

guess what guys!!! crystal comes back tonight... hahaha... but i'm goin to san jose this weekend... we can still kick it tho cuz san jo is almost closer to her than frisco... haha.. =P

oh yea, my advice for the moment... don't be a jackass.

wow... i haven't posted in hella days... if i weren't online for that many days, people would've panicked... there's not much goin on here actually... crystal is in arizona. chris is in long beach. so, what does that mean? it means that i have to contact some of my other friends that have been missing in action to do stuff or go solo... yesterday, i needed to get a chair mat thing for the computer chair... i didn't really wanna go alone, and i didn't wanna wait for my mom... so i called on eric... yea, we haven't talked much for a while, but we let things go kinda easily... so i picked him up... went to taco bell... then to staples... we spent almost an hour just in staples... lol... then we went to target and spent pretty much an hour there too... oh yea, my mom wanted me to buy weights from target... so pretty much, eric was my errand buddy for the day...

oh yea, my mom and i rearranged my room... i love it! there's so much space now... we also took out one of the desks so it makes my room a lot nicer...

what else... well, after the fun i had at metropolis, u should kno that i was looking forward to my next rave... but the thing is... i had fun at metro cuz of the people i was wit... the scene was alrite, but if i didn't spend it with who i did, it jus wouldn't have been the same, and i probably would've left when i was going to... well, the next big one is cyberfest... unlike what i told many, i bought a ticket a few weeks ago and have been holding onto it... right now, i'm still unsure if i'm going cuz no one that i really kicked it wit at metro is going as of yet... hopefully, i'll figure it out by the week of cyberfest, so i still would have time to sell the ticket... so let me kno...

bein the sober one at something like a rave is like being the designated driver at a party... it's hard... believe me it is... even for someone like me who is against the whole drug thing... i mean, i've been sober for all my life... no drugs. no alcohol. i'm clean. but sometimes, i can't help but be curious... can't help but want to experience what there is to experience... a part of me doesn't want to live life wondering and always being curious to what i've missed... then there's that other part that says, "drugs are bad. stay clean. u've seen them fuck up too many lives." heh... it's an ongoing debate in my head... but as a certain someone said to me a few days ago... "i like you clean, and i wouldn't have it any other way."

monkeys eat bananas. the end.

tamia - who do you tell

there you were in a crowded room
with someone, at least I assumed
how did i know i would fall in love
with you... so soon

just one look in your eyes
and i see the truth
and i try hard to hide that i'm made for you
but iI know deep inside things that we could do
just as long as we're together
but...

who do you tell when you love someone
hoping that someone's in love with you
who do you tell when you love someone
i think i might as well tell you

i can't believe that i feel this way
there is so much that i want to say
i wanna touch you, hold you,
feel you, please you
as we're making love all through the night
we would talk to each other
we would laugh and play
we would claim it's forever every night and day
we would share every minute 'til the test of time
in my mind

who do you tell when you love someone
hoping that someone's in love with you
who do you tell when you love someone
i think i might as well tell you

i've hesitated much too many times
and i won't let you slip away from me... no...
i know you're for me and me for you
but i don't know what to say or to do
so now that we're together i'm telling you

who do you tell when you love someone
hoping that someone's in love with you
who do you tell when you love someone
i think i might as well tell you

i think i might as well tell you...

oh yea, and no, mother, u cannot control who i see and who i don't. no matter what u say... i'm me, and will always go by what i want not what you want. why won't u jus accept the fact that i'll never be what u want me to be. i may resemble u, but deep down... u hate me cuz i'm my dad. and u kno it... when u look into my eyes and hear my words... you just can't believe that i'm dad and not you. deal with it.

if today was my last day on this earth, would u cry for me? would u miss me? would u even care? yes, i'm asking u. u, the person reading this right now...

and u kno what, i can't wait to get away from my mom. sometimes i wonder if it's even worth tryin to be on good terms with her because no matter what i do or say, it's just not right to her. i'm just a big fat mistake...

are u an agressive driver?

Driver Stress Profile Results
Anger Low 6
Impatience Low 7
Competing Moderate 8
Punishing Low 4

YOUR TOTAL SCORE is 25 out of a possible 120.

2 hours of sleep. great. correction. went back to sleep two hours later and the total is 6. argh...

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and yes, i'm this bored...

"Our global positioning device has got you pinpointed somewhere between glamorous and racy. You're the fast, flashy Sports Car. We're thinking a BMW or even a Porsche Boxster, with a luminous silver paint job. You are the prize earned after years of hard work and strife. Envy can be seen in the eyes of every passer-by. There's no greater satisfaction than watching their slack-jawed looks as you speed by, and feeling the power as you lightly press that pedal. And just like your zippy car, you love to get from one cool scene to the next at lightning speed. You truly represent life in the fast lane. People are enthralled with your slick lifestyle and fantasize about someday owning what you've got. Who could blame them? Your wheels have got all the options: world-class engines, a stereo to die for, climate controls, navigation tools, and an exterior so shiny they need sunglasses. You are made to drive the ultimate in automobiles."
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well, no kick-it day wit crys this time... d'oH! oh wellz...

i discovered somethin new that i hate... i hate having to settle for something less than what i really want... it's like gettin disappointed... but that's okay cuz it's worse being settled for... *shrugz*