wow... i haven't posted in hella days... if i weren't online for that many days, people would've panicked... there's not much goin on here actually... crystal is in arizona. chris is in long beach. so, what does that mean? it means that i have to contact some of my other friends that have been missing in action to do stuff or go solo... yesterday, i needed to get a chair mat thing for the computer chair... i didn't really wanna go alone, and i didn't wanna wait for my mom... so i called on eric... yea, we haven't talked much for a while, but we let things go kinda easily... so i picked him up... went to taco bell... then to staples... we spent almost an hour just in staples... lol... then we went to target and spent pretty much an hour there too... oh yea, my mom wanted me to buy weights from target... so pretty much, eric was my errand buddy for the day...

oh yea, my mom and i rearranged my room... i love it! there's so much space now... we also took out one of the desks so it makes my room a lot nicer...

what else... well, after the fun i had at metropolis, u should kno that i was looking forward to my next rave... but the thing is... i had fun at metro cuz of the people i was wit... the scene was alrite, but if i didn't spend it with who i did, it jus wouldn't have been the same, and i probably would've left when i was going to... well, the next big one is cyberfest... unlike what i told many, i bought a ticket a few weeks ago and have been holding onto it... right now, i'm still unsure if i'm going cuz no one that i really kicked it wit at metro is going as of yet... hopefully, i'll figure it out by the week of cyberfest, so i still would have time to sell the ticket... so let me kno...

bein the sober one at something like a rave is like being the designated driver at a party... it's hard... believe me it is... even for someone like me who is against the whole drug thing... i mean, i've been sober for all my life... no drugs. no alcohol. i'm clean. but sometimes, i can't help but be curious... can't help but want to experience what there is to experience... a part of me doesn't want to live life wondering and always being curious to what i've missed... then there's that other part that says, "drugs are bad. stay clean. u've seen them fuck up too many lives." heh... it's an ongoing debate in my head... but as a certain someone said to me a few days ago... "i like you clean, and i wouldn't have it any other way."

monkeys eat bananas. the end.