"everytime i see your face, it makes me wanna sing, and everytime i think about your love, it drives me crazy."

as i sat there, watching you sleep, i thought about so many things... first, you look so cute when ur sleeping... then again, who really doesn't, i guess, but dayam... =] i remember when i first heard ur name a few years ago... we used to chop it up every once in a while, but it wasn't really anything... then about a year ago, i heard ur name come up again... i decided to say "hi"... and everything went from there... over time, you called me for the first time... i remember our conversations at night just talking about anything and everything... asking questions back and forth, trying to get to kno each other a little better... i remember the first time i saw u... i remember thinking to myself, "wow, he's so cute... i hope i look alrite." hehe... i remember goin to see my friend, the one that brought us together in the first place... i remember you two joking that i wanted you and what not... the truth was, i did. i remember the first time u had an "accident" with your car... that sucked... i'm sorry, it was my curse... hehe... i remember goin to eat and u holding me back cuz i wouldn't let u see my biceps or somethin... hehe... all i wanted was sum ketchup! oh well... i remember that day we went to the movies... the first time... we saw the first knight... *sigh* i remember our first kiss... i remember how sweet it felt and how much i wanted to be with you... the situation was complicated, yea, but by that night, i was yours, and u were mine... i was falling for you... and i was falling hard... that night would lead to many more happy days... i remember that day i spent pretty much all of it with you... =] i couldn't have been happier. i remember the drama we went through wit my mom and wit my friends... but we made it through, that's all that mattered. in some way, it brought us closer... i remember the first time u said u loved me... i had been waiting to hear those words from you for so long because i knew that i felt the same way too... you were the one i wanted to be with, no one else in the world could've matched how much u meant to me... i would've given u the world... i remember how it felt to have you hold me in your arms... i remember your kiss... i remember jus bein close to you... i remember how u made everything better after the first time we had a big argument and "separated". i was jus happy to have you again... *sigh* i remember when my world came crashing down... we broke up... i convinced myself that i didn't want to be with you anymore... why did i listen to everyone but my own heart? dear god, if only i could take that day back... but i kno i can't; so here i sit, reminiscing about days and months gone by... it's been over a month now, and i still miss you... no matter how much i cry over you or how much i pray and wish for you to come back... i kno it jus won't happen, because ur heart probably has already let go... iono... i'll always love you... that's all. one day, i'll let go of wanting you, but i'll never let go of my memories and of my love... i will never let you go out of my life... i've lost you as mine, but i can't lose you as a friend...