so yea, after that episode with my mom... my night jus went downhill from there... chris got mad or something and jus yea brushed me off... then signed off all in a quickness... iono... hurt? yup. then when i turn to two of my friends for some help... one of them hella gets on my case and whatever... so i jus say to myself, "SCREW IT!" so i signed off... cried myself to sleep...

and here i am in the morning... not in the mood to do very much... i found out that i didn't get accepted into UCLA... oh well, i kinda expected it. dang, now i kinda do wanna get away cuz there's NO ONE holding me here anymore... cuz i mean, i mean nothing to everyone here... so why not go away and maybe meet some people who will appreciate me? ok, so maybe i'll miss like a handful of people... but hey, i can still talk to them and what not, and they're my real friends; so they'll always be there... aiya... i'm rambling... i'm jus very very confused right now... gawd, i wish there was an answer booklet to life...