okay, so today i went to the movies with miguel... we watched american pie 2... omg... pretty funny... but nothing can beat rush hour 2!!! oh man... but yea, the movie was at 7:50... so we ate and got to the movie theatre with perfect timing... but being the cheap/poor bastard i am, i don't wanna pay for my ticket... so i tell him to pay for it, which he does, but ends up asking me for the money before i get out his car... bastard!!! too bad he didn't have change for a 20... so all he got was $6... we get out of the movie at about 9:45... then off we go cuz of my wonderful 10:00 curfew... so yes, that was my evening... with miguel... argh... and the overwhelming feeling of guilt consumes me... inside, i feel like it's cheating on my boi to go out wit him... but i mean, we're not doin anythin... jus kickin it as friends... but i guess, it's jus the history we have together that makes it all questionable... but with all my heart, i don't wanna hurt my chris... i miss him so much... all i want right now... is for him to come home already... jus so i can be with him again... *sigh* woo woo for depression mode... and that's not the only thing that sucks right now... my damn puka shells have this habit of sliding right off of my neck... and yes, they are currently in miguel's possession... dammit! it's amazing how u don't even notice it when ur mind is concentrating on getting home in time so that ur not locked out of your own house... waaaaaaaahhhh... i can't stop thinking bout chris... more and more as the days go on... i miss him... it also doesn't help that i can't call him... i guess i'll have to wait for the day that he comes back [wednesday]...