goodnight frisco!

oh my dear summer, why must you end?!?! it is now time for me to stop bein lazy and actually do something constructive. well, i promised a summer rundown, so here it is... ;] might get random, so prepare!

summer school. my summer didn't really begin right away because right after i got out of school, summer school started. summer school was an experience. my teacher was a weirdo. skyline was a whole different atmosphere that i had to adjust to. the people were, for majority, pretty cool. i made a few friends, and at least one good friend in that class. i got a B. i was quite proud. also, i didn't jus get a B from bsing my way thru calc. i actually understood it, even tho i never did any hw. haha... yea, i guess that thiele guy did something good in my brain. overall, i liked going to summer school this summer cuz it gave me a reason to wake my lazy ass up every morning and do something. good stuff, even tho having to wake up at 7am every morning kinda got on my nerves, but u should be proud to kno that i didn't miss one day of class! =D

long beach. with some work, i convinced my mom to let me go to long beach. it may not seem like a big deal to a lot of you, but to my mom, it was like i was going to a foreign country all by myself. yea, that's jus how much she trusts me. not very much, if at all. anyway, i went down wit chris's family for july 4th weekend. it was so much fun. i fell in love wit chris's family/friends. chrisna is a cool guy who is pretty easy to talk to once you get past his lil front. eric is that easy goin kind of guy who always seems to calm situations down. he's a good guy, and i had fun wit him driving him home from summer school everyday. mike, that crazy tall chinese cambo guy. mike is hella fun to beat up on! haha... but furreal tho, he's cool guy who knows how to have fun, and i hope he knows his limitations. =P he's a good friend and is always there for me. chris... everyone already knows how i feel bout chris. hehe... he's a great guy. i'll leave it at that. i love these 4 guys so much. chris's mom also always made me feel welcome and was always a shoulder to cry on when i couldn't turn to my own mom. i'm gonna miss that. overall, long beach was an experience. i'm glad i was able to go. =] the mystery of mike's missing left shoe is still unsolved. =P

chris. chris was a major part of my summer. so much happened in the past few months. it's been like a roller coaster ride with its ups and downs. practically everyday after summer school, i went to go see him and jus hang out with him. even after summer school ended, i still almost saw him everyday. i loved being able to spend so much time with him because that was something i couldn't do when i was in irvine. i missed it. although, we had our problems every so often. we always seemed to get over them. with all my heart, i care bout him. the happy times are what i miss. i'm not sure what really happened between us, but i guess things jus changed... it makes me sad to think that something that lasted so long and something that meant so much to me had ended. yes, as of september 8, 2003, chris and i became no longer a couple. *sigh* who knows where the future will lead us? i wish i knew... i'm gonna miss chris the most, not jus cuz he was my all, but because he was one of my best friends. i still smile when i think of all the memories.

sean & vinh. my bwb and bOoB. hehe... these guys have always been there for me. they seem to kno when i'm feelin down without me having to say a word. i am so glad that i got to spend as much time with them as i did. i jus wish it could have been more. =] sean, we have our fun memories of divisadero and our efforts to make each other feel better when times got rough. i love you for always being there even tho i sometimes couldn't return the favor. vinh, you always know how to make me smile. whenever we hang out, i can't not have fun. you take care of me when i need something. you've always been a great friend even tho we don't talk as much, but i love u jus the same. sean & vinh, you both are an essential part of my life that i never wanna let go. i'm thankful for when you came into my life. it's amazing that you both came into my life at the same time and became such great friends as well. thank you.

chris's friends & family. i can't seem to stress how thanful i am that all these people came into my life. i wouldn't be the same without them. tony, chris's brother, is like my own younger brother that i never had. all of his friends, i like to consider them a big part of my life now as well. my summer would have definitely been different had i not had the opportunity to spend time with all them. his cousins and mike were always fun to kick it wit even if we were jus watchin tv or blingin out the rides. =P lords of the bling! or the fellowship of the bling. hehe... i'm the master of the scratchx. 3East guys, i love you. pete, jeff, etc, you all are completely considered my friends. hopefully, you can consider me as one too even tho chris and i are no longer together. =] love you all.

cyberfest. back to events. cyberfest was so much fun. once again, i went with a bunch of chris's friends. this time we were rollin hella deep, bout 12 people. crazyness! overall, i had a lot of fun with these crazy folks. i met up with the wonderful lyna and gina who also added to the fun. i danced the night away. =] i'm glad that i got to spend that night with who i did because it was like my goin away party that i wanted to spend with those people important to me. chris and i always make some memories at these things. i wouldn't have had it any other way. if he weren't there, it jus wouldn't have been the same at all. if only i could erase the image of this random girl that started grindin on me, that night would be even better. hahaha... she wasn't even cute. lol. yeaaaa... a lot of lil interesting things happened. ;] and of course, to no one's suprise, adrienne was the sober one. =] fun times.

friday outings. during the summer, i'd plan these friday outings with chris and some of his friends, and sometimes mine too. we would usually go to the movies and eat afterwords. through these gatherings, i got to kno these people a lot more. i love chris's friends so much. i'm proud to consider them part of my own circle now. one of my favorite things in this world is just spending time with a group of friends and jus kickin it and talking. unforgettable moments. fun times as well.

lunch on the 24th. THIS was one of most unforgettable moments this summer. i had so much fun with these 10 people. it was awesome. i was so happy to see everyone able to go. pete, jeff, chris, joe, eric, erica, lyna, gina, kennole, and cecilia. these are really amazing people. it felt good to organize this and bring everyone together. it was really fun jus being able to eat and talk together. i love bein wit these people. they're all fun and all great. it's times like that that i wish never had to end. i only wish that a few other people could have made it and added to the enjoyment, but it's all good. very fun times. this wrapped up my summer very nicely. thank you to everyone that made it out. it meant a lot to me.

well, i guess that's all i can think of for now. tomorrow is the day. write back soon. =]

expect a long summer rundown post soon...

mMmm... home, eating some jack in the crack, watchin some hbo, and online... couldn't possibly make this day any better =] i had fun. HELLA fun. thanx to all who went. =]

OMG OMG OMG... IT'S TOMORROW NIGHT... CYBERFEST SUCKAS!!! *giggles like a lil school girl on crack* WEEEEHHHH!!

My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?
WEAKSAUCE!!! hahaha... i guess i'm not as hardcore as i thought... =P

OH MY FREAKING GOODNESSSSSS... i am HELLA lookin forward to cyberfest!!!!!!! i'm gonna dance my ass off... if i don't, i'll be quite disappointed... it better be fun!!!

kumquat! muahahahaha... funny ass word of the moment...

he was able to get to me... he was able to make me tear up and get depressed... dangit...

what to say... i don't kno... but what i do kno is that summer is going into its final stretch...

four hours.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
i sat. i thought. i cried. repeat.
you get the idea.

my world ended at 6:30pm monday.

[break.]

i kno that u and i have been thru many downs before
but that don't mean the chance has gone away to love each other more
we've struggled and we've fought to keep us both between the lines
through many years we've cried our tears
and always kept our pride aside
so you can't say that...

we still...
always argue all the time
never make love when it's right
we still...
never say we love each other
always up in one another
we still...
fight for every little thing
never ever stop to think that we still...
always loved each other

i kno at times, you'd believe we would never change
that it was much to overcome
much of an obstacle to take
but you were always the one to always think the worst of things
so it was always me to take the stand
and take the initiative
so you can't say that...

we still...
always argue all the time
never make love when it's right
we still...
never say we love each other
always up in one another
we still...
fight for every little thing
never ever stop to think that we still...
always loved each other

Frankie J. - We Still
...i still love you...

well, my main site is now down and i'm not sure if it'll be back up. technically, i'll call it down indefinitely. =[ here's a link jus in case it starts working again. http://lafemmina.net/~flair. well... what to say right now... i'm kinda bummed bout my page not working again... maybe i'll start looking for a new host once again... anyway, i'll be posting here and possibly my xanga as well. ok, can't really think of anythin to say so gbye!

The Empty Vee Project
holy freakin crap!!! this guy is jus crazy! hahaha... he sat thru 24 hours of mtv. why would he do such a thing!?!? u have to read it! or at least the intro. i was rollin! but seriously, i would've gone insane or fell asleep... there's so much crap on mtv. i don't kno if i could have lived! haha... read it suckas!

*drum roll* announcing the prizes for my 10,000th visitor contest. i have decided to award my two dear winners an original piece of graphic artwork at their request. it can be a wallpaper, business card design, etc. yay for mike and sean!

okok... u guys can request ur own darn prize as long as it costs me less than $5 and doesn't put my reputation on the line. =P

he brought me food today!!! major cool points... hehehe...

mary's newest entry makes me want some banana bread real bad... hehe...

love. despair. disappointment. hope. faith. wishes. dreams. anger. sadness. joy. happiness. fun. laughter. tears.

when will the cycle end? when can i jus be satisfied? *sigh* indeed.

oh my freakin goodnes... mike's newest xanga entry makes me speechless. it like touched me. seriously tho! jeeeeezus. i kno i've posted somethin similar to this quite a while back. it's good to see a guy who knows that love is more than jus the animal magnitism. =P

announcing the winnder of the 10000 visitor contest... and the winner is...
Mike Cheng
wOo! i'm still deciding what the prize is... so yea! oh, and sean might as well get a consolation prize for being 10001 cuz 10001 is jus a cool number... hehe