LOVE
oh love, what a double edged sword. with the good times, there are a few bad times. u kno what i wish didn't exist? heartache. too bad that can't be. i wish that all my friends didn't have to go thru crap with their significant others. i wish that everything was happy for everyone, or at least when things go bad, they don't go horribly terrible where it's so hard to recover. man... the past few weeks have been full of drama, and not really for me. breakups, arguments, make-ups, etc. the two strongest relationships i knew ended. gets u thinking. what is love? how can it be so strong yet so weak at the same time? how can an intangible thing have so much effect on people's lives? some people live their lives always in search of the "one." in the movie The One, jet li's character believed that his wife was the one that completed him, the one that complemented everything he had. wow. love. "A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. " oneness, that's how love is, even with a friend. think bout ur best friend. can u say that u love him/her? i hope so. not romantically, but still love. they complement u in a way too and complete u. love, when should it end? can true love end? and if it can end and it does, can u turn back? personally, TRUE love cannot end, but a relationship can be ended, leaving the love on the side to be uncovered again later. but then again, what is TRUE love? who would've figured that love is so confusing but probably everyone in this world wants it? i wish all of u love.

and with that... HAPPINESS
what makes u happy? who is your happiness? is it wrong to have all of ur happiness lie in one person or thing? i don't think so as long as u're happy, right? but what happens when that one thing goes unhappy? the world seems as if it's ending and u spiral downward into a dark abyss... money can't buy happiness. it's true if u think about it. would u really be happy if u had all the money in the world but no one to share that joy with? i wouldn't be happy. think about it. jus always remember tho, with all happy times, there are bad times, but if things seem at their worst, they can only go up. live happy. i wish all of u happiness.

"one day u asked if i would save my own life over yours. i answered that i would same my life. you walked away angrily, but what u don't kno is that you are my life."

[i love you, chris. you are my happiness and my all. 8 + 2 = 10 Months. it's been a hard journey to make it this far, but i can only see forever when i dream of u.]