well, i saw chris today. =] i think i see him pretty much every thursday and friday now... saturdays, maybe too... but yea, it was coo to kick it wit him... i don't talk to him very much anymore, but i guess it's how they say that distance makes the heart grow fonder... i hope so... love u chris...

i'm so damn behind in my math class... iono, when i get home i'm jus too lazy to do anything... i jus wanna sit on my ass until it's time to go to bed at bout 12... i haven't been in the happy mood jus yet... or maybe i'm jus in thai tea withdrawl... the down phase... lol... sounds like i'm addicted to some drug.. it's not like i pheen for it... okok, so i do... =P whatever u butthead... school sucks...

this one girl that i seriously hate... i don't hate a single person in this world except her... like i could say that i hate someone, but i don't usually mean it. but wit this girl, it's jus pure hate... i kno i kno... that's bad, but whatever. anyway, she's been sittin wit my group durin break and lunch, and it's jus gettin annoyin. it's pretty much cuz her "best friend" and she stopped talkin AGAIN... so yea, iono... i say that i don't let it bother me... or that she has no effect on me anymore, but she does... i hate to admit it but she does... jus looking at her makes me so angry that i seriously shake... GRR... i must not think bout it or else i'm gonna get mad again... but yes, i don't like her.

college... *sigh* college... i don't know what to do... but come what may, just come what may...

love, school, friendship, family... decisions to make about each one, but i guess i could say that everything is going better than it was a few weeks ago... well, that's all for now. take care everyone. =]

well, i realize that i haven't posted in a really long time... but if only you knew what's been going on in my life... wOo... not exactly good times... problems with my mom, problems with chris, problems with school... oh man... the last 3 weeks were, mostly, bad... but i'm feeling better now. i think everything will be back to normal soon. i hope.

well, me and chris are back together. i don't kno why i love him so much. i just can't let go of him. he makes my life happier and simpler more often than not. he's just the type of person that i can jus have fun with and be myself around. with all my heart, until the end, i will love him.

i'm thinking about actually doing my real webpage www.angelxflair.com... it needs to be done, but i'll get to it after i get caught up in all of my classes. so give it another month, i'm guessing. and it has come to my realization that i really really need to promote this page or else it's just for my own amusement to read... blah... whatever...

oh yea, to respond to chris's post about snowboarding... it's best to fall on your booty cuz it's the least vulnerable. heh... cuz if u think bout it, what could u land on that would hurt less? i'll be a pro snowboarder soon, jus watch... my first time was pretty good, or so i was told. hehe... anyway, back to all of your lives... i've got nothing else super interesting to share. =P

everything i see, everywhere i look... i'm reminded of him... from the littlest, most insignificant thing to flat out obvious. i can' t help but think about him... i look at my dvds and see movies that we've seen together... i dig through my closet looking for something and find old movie tickets, including the one from our first movie together... the night he asked me to be his... i look aruond my room and i see all of the lil car toys he gave me like my hotwheels one that no matter how much i told him that i didn't want him to buy it, he still did because he knew that i wanted it and that it would make me smile. i used to ask myself why i was with him... but now i know why... even tho he made me sad when little things happened... he always found a way to make it up or make everything okay again... just last night, i remember thinking, "wow, 7 months on monday..." but now i don't know... i wish everything was happy again...

i still love him... my heart's breaking, but there's nothing i can do, but let the pain envelop me... maybe one day soon, i'll be happy again and my smile will brighten the day again, but as for now, my face is grayer than the clouds outside my window.

oh yea... i guess my horoscope is wrong... cuz it's too late to rekindle a flame that has died out... why am i still in love?... slap me.

SmarterChild (10:57:34 PM):

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Here's your Libra horoscope for Saturday, January 5th, provided
by AstroAdvice

You'll be in the mood for love. Let down your hair and shed yourself of the inhibitions that have stood in the way of your enjoyment. It's time to put a little fire back into your relationship.

yep, that's my horoscope for tomorrow... i wonder... *sigh*

well, i haven't updated for a while because there's been absolutely nothing going on in my life... i'm on a vacation from school, and i haven't done jack... christmas was okay... i am convinced that my family doesn't kno me cuz i got either no presents or presents that were jus like "blah"... yea, it was pretty much my mom telling them what she thought i would want, but oh well... it's all gee cuz at least i kno that i have a family that cares about me... then new year's was another alrite... nothing all too exciting... jus another year, i suppose... chris came back on monday but is leaving on thursday... since monday & tuesday were family days, i have one day left to spend wit him... i'm not feelin that at all... well, i can't ask for much... blah blah.. i'm not in the mood to blog right now... so i'm gonna go get my fast and the furious dvd and talk to u later... not like anyone reads this ish...