ALRIGHT, this will be my bLog of the week so i'll make it worth it. maybe i'll post again later this week, but this week is pretty busy, so we'll see... so here goes.

well, let me tell you about my weekend first. yes, my friends, i went back to the bay again. hehe... and yes, i'll be there again starting this weekend for the summer. why did i go up? well, normally, i wouldn't have gone the weekend before finals, but this was important. also, tickets were provided for me at a cheap price. so i couldn't refuse. anyway, it was for chantal's debut!!! fun times i tell you. so yea, i spent the weekend with my wonderful chris. and like wow, it was our anniversary. nice, huh? i thought so. ;] happy happy happy times. i love you chris! so yea, i went up there saturday and came back on monday night. i'll get around to posting some pictures when i get time. chantal is the greatest! i hope she had a good debut and everything. =] also, getting to spend time with my chris is the best way to spend my time. =D

alrighty, now on to the reminiscing about my year at Irvine...
well, my year started off with big hopes and big expectations. i expected to make friends easily and quickly. also, i thought that i would jus become a part of irvine relatively easily. well, contrary to what i believed, i was an outcast. i got the weird looks no matter how much i tried to socialize at the beginning of the year. i decided to just close myself off to those who were not worth my effort. i walked around with a look on my face that probably read "don't fuckin talk to me." yup, i've been told that i'm intimidating. good and bad, i suppose. well, since the whole dorm scene wasn't working out for me, i resorted to Kababayan to develop a sense of belonging. it was with kaba that i found friends and my family. i felt that i belonged with them. i gained friends easily. it was with them that i started to enjoy my irvine life. if i wasn't in my room, i was with kaba folks or in the cross. that was my home away from home. well, sure i went thru phases, and i still continue to, but i will still have them no matter what. but i have decided that i'll jus keep tryin to stay at uci for as long as uci wants me. academically, my grades went up and down with my social and family life. when my mood went down, my grades suffered. but who doesn't struggle their first year? yea... college is hard. don't let anyone tell u differently. overall, college has been a life-altering experience, be it a bad one or good one. i've learned a lot about other people and about myself. just as much as this has been a self-discovering adventure, it has also been a time to learn from others. i've made a lot of mistakes and what not, but i wouldn't really want to change anything except maybe my grades... yea, i fucked up on my grades and i'm scared shitless... good luck to me. yes, college is something you'll never forget. believe me on that. regrets? not so much. sometimes i wish that i was coo with the people in my dorm, but oh well. life goes on... and i'll be there riding the rollercoaster of life in the front seat to see it all.

now for the shoutouts to those who have made a difference in my college experience:
first of all, to chris: without him, i wouldn't have love in my life. he's been there to support me through everything. i love him more with everyday that we share. he's given so much to this relationship. i'm so happy that we've made it thru this year. it's been difficult, but i never doubted it. chris, i love you for always.
to my kaba friends: you've given me everything that i searched for in uci. i got the friends and the community. also, i got that sense of belonging that i wanted so badly. this goes especially to: paul nathan, baucas, dio, jen u, adrian r., adrian c., eugene, and all the others that i'm close with. you're all awesome people, and i'm glad that we all met. thank you all for the memories.
to my kasama family: the 6 of you have been like a real family to me. dom and julie, i couldn't have made it thru this year without the two of you. thank you guys. dom, you've been like a real bro to me. someone i could talk to. thank you. to everyone in my family, thank you. you've been the best and i never wanna forget our memories.
to the best roommate, sanaz: she's been all i could have ever wanted in a roommate. she's given me her time, her food, her money, everything. without her, i would've given up and lost all hope in uci a long time ago. i'm so glad that we have this connection. she's like my big sis. love her like one.
to mara and marsa: you guys are among the newest of my friends here, especially marsa. i'm so glad that i met the two of you! you guys are so awesome. thank you for accepting me into your room when i needed somewhere to crash. thank you for being such great friends.
to gene: yes, my depressed buddy, you get ur own heading. i've met you only recently, but u're a great friend. always there to cheer me up and to urge me on to do my work. thank you for all that. and thank you for all the songs. hip hop! hehe...
to gary & kristin: my humcore buddies. among the first friends here. u both really touched my life and i thank you for that...
to my roommies for next year: michelle, you're the greatest... if u guys ever read this... haha... anyway, i'm proud to be the baby of the apartment. thank you for giving me the chance to have a great place to live next year.
to aldor: thank you for giving me something to look forward to next year, a better college experience.
to chantal, mary, aaron, deanna, and all the others who will be going to college next year: i wish you all the best of luck. i'm sure you all won't need it. remember that i'm always here for all of you and will always be. i love you guys like younger siblings. yes, we'll have to kick it before you all leave to your colleges.
to sean & vinh: it's been hard for me to go thru the past few years without you two. you've both always been there for me whenever i needed someone to talk to. i'm thankful that i met you. it's been hard to keep up with our talks and i kno i haven't been exactly the best friend this year, but i'll make it up to you guys.
to the friends of last summer anson, jeyel, and silvio: thank you for teaching me about friendship. the good and the bad. i was sad to see you guys leave my life, but what can i do but continue to grow and mature. maybe two of you have too. forgive and forget. thank you silvio for doing that...
to crystal: i thought we'd be friends forever. i thought that we'd be like sisters forever. i suppose i was wrong. i tried. missing you and all our memories.
to sheena: what can i say? i kno that we'll catch up this summer. thank you for still being there for me even if i didn't turn to you.
to pete, jeff, tony & deanna, chrisna, eric, and mike: you've all become my newest friends. all of you are so cool and i'm glad that i met you all. always fun when i kick it with you guys. thanx for all of the memories and the good times.
to those not mentioned but may deserve one: thank you too.

wow, i felt like that was a yearbook. haha... well, hopefully i didn't leave anyone out. if i remember anymore, i'll be sure to edit this... so yup... that's all for now... have a nice day my bLog readers. =] (btw, i replied to all the previous comments as well. thank you for the comments)