alright... so here is the other post that i said that i would post. the previous one doesn't really count as it cuz it was jus one of those spur of the moment things. anyway, i'm going through one of those phases again when i think about whether or not uci is the place for me. unfortunately, i feel as if i may not have control of it. okok, i always have control over my own fate, but still, bear with me for a minute. i believe that i'm passing 2 of the 3 classes that i'm taking. unfortunately, though, that does not work under my contract. therefore, if i don't work my ass off to get that grade above a C-, i'm screwed, and by "screwed" i mean REALLY screwed... almost to the point where i'm FUCKED. excuse the profanity. haha... but yea... and that brings me to the fact that i go thru these phases in the first place. i kno it's normal for someone to question if he or she is in the right place, but why do i question it like every other week or so??? but yea, there's a number of things to lose and to gain when making this decision. blah! i hate being confused like this. it doesn't help that my mom is adding stuff to her previous "whatever makes u happy" mentality. now she adds the "i want you to stay there... blah blah blah..." GRR... i really need someone to sit down with me to jus talk about everything... or even on the phone... *shrugz* oh well... time to sit back and procrastinate a lil more...