so i'm sick. my throat hurts like hell. i shake every time i have to swallow cuz i'm scared. i'm in pain. blah. so, yea, i have to deal with getting better. also, last night, i discovered that my wisdom teeth are growing in... not good. i have to find out if they need to be pulled out. most likely, they'll have to be. blah #2. and for the final and most brutal blow all in one day... i check the mail to find this waiting for me...

"Here's your $20 for the flowers. I don't want it. It doesn't mean anything to me now. You could have given it to me last Friday if you really wanted to.

How dare you put me in the same category as your friends!! I didn't think that I should be competing with your so-called friends. Always remember this - I'm the only one who feed you, clothes you and work my ass off to put you in school. So don't give me that bullshit about balancing your time between me and your stupid friends. Don't do me any favors. I really don't care anymore where you sleep or with whom. I have passed that stage. You're an adult now and you're responsible for your own actions. If you want to be used, that's your problem. I hope he gave you the attention you needed this Valentine's Day."

alrighty... she has another 3-4 sentences about grades and what not, but those weren't really interesting. so this is from the wonderful woman i have grown up calling mom. please take note of the grammatical errors, use of obscenities, and retarded assumptions. where to begin? so, i left her roses and a letter at the house. i assumed that it would get better cuz of that. i told her my side of the story that i wanted to be able to spend time with my friends and with her. but, being that she was mad, i didn't wanna go over there and waste precious bay area time being with the angry woman. though, thinking back, maybe i should have jus stuck thru it but whatever now. my aunt told me not to, so i took her word for it. well, so that's how things are now... i feel like crap. my mom is a place your own choice of words here. BLAH #3! freakin aye... she assumes that i'm the worst person in the world. u swear. i'm an angel compared to probably u, the person reading this right now. =P anywho... i need comments on this. am i at fault here? i went up there to suprise her. i should've jus told her that i wasn't going at all... dammit... oh well... we'll see what develops. what am i to do now? nothing, i guess. and u kno what. my friends and bf do hold a higher if not the same place as my mom. iono... whatever... i'm a lil worried that she reads this. u think? argh. i'm all paranoid.. freakin aye! i'm spent. hahaha... that american idol show... funny stuff.... =P gbye u.